SynSational Speaks.....

Thursday, November 16, 2006

I wonder if He knows

Remember that guy that I was thinking about during my smash session with my friend? Well, it was suggested to me to write about him, so I said, bet that. Why not. Damn writing about my other girl whose life story is so draining. I'll write about him.

In some ways he's a mystery to me, but in other ways, I know that if we ever got a chance to hang out for real, we would click in more ways than one. Like I said in my other post, the reality that me and him won't ever step past that friendship mark is there, and I have no problem with that. Don't get me wrong, I would love to show him what a real woman, who is a good woman, can do for his spirit. Show him that yeah, I'm SynSational in all different kinds of ways. But if I never get that chance, I'm cool with our friendship.

I wonder if he knows that I'm kinda sorta feeling him, and I'm not playing about it. But I also know there are some things in my life that he's ok with, and somethings he's leery about it. I understand and respect that.

Does he know that if he were here in KC, I would jump at the opportunity to get to know him better? There's only so much charm you can pour out over phone and email. One on one, face to face, hanging out so he can see way more about me as a person, my actions, habits, etc, and vice versa. What you see with me is what you get. I'm not fake over phone, email, or in person. But he needs to see that face to face.

We are working on hanging out, and I look forward to that.

I wonder if he knows that the shortest convo with him is so cool, just because, he called.

I wonder if he knows I like hearing his voice....it's deep, it's nice. I'm feeling it. He needs to practice saying my name in that deep tone.

**crickets**

um, did I just say that? Oh my damn. Whateva, I'm a grown woman, I can say what I want on my damn blog. LOL

He listens to my stories about the dudes I kick it with, the man I want in my life, and I wonder what he thinks of it all.

I listen to his stories, the chicks he kicks it with, the craziness we both experience sprinkled here and there, and we laugh about it, give each other advice, but I wonder if he knows in my head I'm thinking, if you were here, I would try to make it better.

There's not much else I can really say on this because I don't want to come off like I'm over-eager for him, cause it is what it is, and I'm over eager for no one. If I had a chance with him, cool, but the friendship we've built is way more important to me than seeing if I can be his woman. Like I said, it is, what it is. Whatever happens, happens. I hate when people say that, but in this situation, it's so true.

I'm just wondering, if he knows.

Holla atcha girl.

Posted by SynSational :: 7:43 AM :: 7 comments